Ive read a bunch of books over the apst few months. Ive even read one called Stop Walking on Eggshells for people that have a relationship with Borderline Personality Disorder. Ive considered that maybe she has it and just doenst know it, she can be so irrational and flips out at the drop of a hat over thinsg that most people wouldnt think twice about. I.e. I threw away a stale tortilla, she flipped out. I threw away a bag of old popcorn that had been on the counter for days, she flipped out. I said she was overthinking some pens we were looking for for the wedding, she flipped out. Ive read No More Mr Nice Guy, Mars and Venus in the Bedroom, another one called Between the Sheets (i think that was the title). The bottom line is, sex is important to me. I want it to be important to her and fun and playful and erotic and sensual and even raunchy on occasion. I didnt think it was normal to have sex 1-2 times a month all through the engagement. I dont think its normal for newlyweds to go 2-3 weeks without it. Granted the wedding planning was stressful and she did it all on her own. I didnt help much at all and maybe she took that as me not wanting to marry her. Well I got emotionally distant when we stopped having sex 2-3 times a week and got disinterested in the wedding process. None of her friends helped or her bridesmaids, so maybe shes resentful from all that. Ive apologized 1000 times for it and tried to move on, but maybe she just hasnt let go of it yet. I dunno...
