Long and Bumpy Road 2be continued...

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I may have to journal/vent to you all this weekend.

After my last text about the hotel yesterday afternoon I haven't heard from him again. I am sure he got to his brothers by about 7 at the latest. No call to check in. Nothing. This is the stuff that drives me crazy. No consistency. Am I being too picky here?

I was talking with a friend of mine last night about my sich. She asked me if I was constantly looking for things to be wrong and pick out little things he was/was not doing. She also mentioned that if I was always brushing him off and never giving him anything in return that he will give up. So now that has me thinking. I am so afraid to stick my heart out there again just to have it smashed. He hasn't really proven himself sincere yet. Maybe its easier for me to keep him at a distance and unintentionally hurt him before he hurts me.

Woke up feeling lousy today. My kids had this flu bug over last weekend. I really hope I am not getting it. Being pregnant you can hardly take anything and I am a miserable sick person to be around.