I know how hard this is for you, and it is such a hard situation with the way that the H are with the way they feel, I remember my family dr telling me that the guilt was literally killing him. It is so hard to stand by and not be able to make it right for them, all I could do it let him know I was there. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Also when you aren't sure what they are going to do, it eats at you to, Take care of you...I know that its so hard, but think of you!
Me - 44 H - 44 M - 19yrs together - 23yrs D16 S8 EA/PA - Bomb Oct20/06 Jan 8/07 Feb 01/07 Jul 15/07 H still @ home Recovered!