I'm started feeling down yesterday after seeing my C. She asked if H has found an apt. yet and I said as far as I know he hasn't looked. When she asked me if I have asked him about it I said no because I don't want to push him to do it and I'm afraid of the answer I would get.
I'm so confused because H has been spending so much time w/ us over the last week. I realize it is just so he can be with the Ds and not me. H has made no idication that he wants to spend time alone w/ me. He has however seemed more willing to spend time w/ me w/ Ds so it is a start. I don't know if he is just enjoying family time and thinking that if we get the Big D it will be like this.
Yesterday H had a few hours w/ the Ds and took them to a movie. I went to see my C while they were there then did some shopping. H had to leave but ended up coming back for dinner. When I asked if he would be back for dinner he said yes if he was aloud. I asked why wouldn't you be but he didn't answer. I have never told him since this S began that he couldn't come to the house.
H and I talked about todays plans before he left for the night. I was doing the best I could to get an idea of what he wanted for today so that my plans w/ Ds wouldn't interfere. H told me he had already spent more time w/ the Ds this week than he had expected. Again, I don't know if he thinks I would try to limit the contact.
So here I go starting another day in the land of confusion.
