Amy.... you know in your heart that you are doing what you HAVE to for your kids' wellbeing .... hard as it may be in the present, it is the longrun you are protecting and planning for. Stick to your guns girl... you are much stronger than you realize.
Has this been discussed with H yet? Where is your daughter tonight?
Psa 51:10 Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.