Hurtin, Wow! I bet your head is messed up! I agree with Michael ... "your family wants you back, let's talk about what needs to happen..." IF that's what you want. You may not know at the moment either! Don't rush into anything. If you decide to try to R, it takes a long time. Baby steps. You'll be starting at the beginning. The old relationship is gone (but that's a good thing).
Keep focused! I hope you're still working out. Get yourself a good workout before you go. That will help!
