You are definately in a tight spot. You've done so much to aggravate her for so long that she's a brick wall now, a block of ice. Don't expect anything positive from her for quite some time.
I think it is very much OK for her to know the truth. That you can see how you've failed her, that you can understand how she must have felt(give specifics), and that you're sorry you let her down. I also think it's okay to ask her for patience.
Anything you do to try to stop her, manipulate her, control her, critisize her, fix her, change her, etc. will be like pouring gasoline on an open flame. It's time for her to hear words and see actions from you that communicate to her that you understand her pain. Do you really think she wants a D, to break up her family, etc. just because she's selfish, wants OM, is in MLC? No, her world has been rocked, and it's been rocked for years. The vision she had of her perfect man has been trashed. She is not sure of what she wants, but she's sure of what she DOESN'T want.
It's not too late to create a new vision. Don't just bury your head in the sand and hope for the best. Get up, and get going. Show this woman that you are the man of her dreams. Start right now, and let NOTHING stop you from your mission. It begins with humility, then courage, strength and faith.
My W was the ice woman. She closed the door on me. But I never gave up, I kept calling plays and kept getting bloody. Some plays gained yardage, some lost, but I kept calling them just the same. Stupid, brave, beat up, dirty, honest, humble, never a doubt that I would die trying. Eventually one drop at a time the ice block melted.
Keep Fighting!
God Bless,
COG
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