Well I appreciate the advice Zuzu. Its interesting that you say that, in our conversation last night she said something similar. She has to sleep with a CPAP machine for her apneia (sp?). She tried to put in in my nose and I was kinda grossed out by it. I said eww its been all up in your nose, I dont want it in my nose thats gross. Anyways, long story short, the topic segued into bodliy fluids and how I didnt want to go down on her or touch her after I, how do I say, left a deposit. And how it was a turn off that if I thought my own stuff was gross why would she want it in her. I assured her that I may have had an adversion to it in the beginning, and maybe it was a little wierd on my part but im past it now. I cant say that I would be ok with going down there afterwards, and i think thats true for just about evey guy, but id be ok with touching her afterwards. I am willing to bend a little and maybe do it sometimes, but honestly, the thought of licking up my own stuff is pretty gross to me. I cant explain it, it just is. But really all Im hearing is more reasons for her not to have sex. Just another hoop I have to jump through to prove I love her. None of my other g/f's, my ex-wife, my fwb's ever thought i was weird because I wouldnt go down on them after finishing. I am going to try and continue the conversation from last night when I get home this evening.
