I kinda think that sometimes. That maybe if we actually had some time apart, he might actually start appreciating what i do at home and with the girls and I might start missing the little things I've always loved about him rather than getting annoyed with his up and down behavior. Don't get me wrong, i'm glad we aren't to the point of seperation, but i sometimes feel like something has to change in him before I can start feeling normal about being at home.
I used to walk on eggshells with him all the time. I wouldn't say to much or he'd get mad and yell or storm out of the house or hibernate into his office for a few days or something. Now i feel like I'm doing the same things, just differently. I am careful not to mention anything that could possibly further damage his self esteem, or mention that i'm upset or that i need more help or anything. He doesn't get mad as often, but there are also those moments. I've stopped letting him guide how i respond to those, but i kinda feel like i if want this M to work, i don't have a choice to tiptoe around the other (EA and D) stuff...
i can see how it would be an ego thing. That makes sense. The problem is that saving face in front of a MC doesn't save the M.
If i can't fall in love... I'd like to fall in chocolate! ~ Author Unknown
