Trying to focus on me and the kids. Spent the day returning gifts, cleaning and taking the dog to the vet. After being so sick she got a clean bill of health. A small miracle.
H called me first thing this morning. He was working. He made some small talk, asked about what I was doing and made a point to say that he had a counseling appointment today.
I didn't think I would see him today, but when i got back from the vet he had stopped to see d12. He looked exhausted. Must have been tiring pouring his feelings out to the C.
I pray that counseling helps him sort things out, but I am so setting expectations at 0. Part of me thinks he is going so that someone can tell him that he isn't doing anything wrong and validating everything that has happened. Who knows. H is so messed up.
At least H wasn't crying today. I know I spend too much time thinking about MOW, but i do have to wonder where she is at this point. It would be so much easier to know one way or the other. Oh well....hopefully in time i will.
The listing on the house expires in January. Not a nibble or a looker. Wondering if H will relist. I worry that the tears are to soften me up about selling and helping him sell. I guess I am paranoid.
I pray that God will show me something in the situation of mine. I feel like I am at a stand still and h is stuck in a tunnel of quicksand. I wish I could order a helping of patience from Amazon.com. I am running low.
