The ultimate goal would be to have a relationship with W where we both were in it 100% , that could only be good for us and our family. We both failed at this before , I like to think I have addressed a lot of my own behaviours that were lacking. If W could get somewhere near that same page then we could be "game on" . I get the feeling that she may want the same ultimate goal but does not think its possible. In her own words , her heads still spinning. She drifts in and out of WAS thinking these days. Me going out rattled her and I dont think its a bad thing that she realises that other women find me at least attractive or fun enought to hang out with. I have to be cautious with this though. She is sitting on the fence , I will show her the way off ( gently) , once I figure out how .
The good thing is that I am without fear. One way or the other as long as we are moving forward , I can deal with it.
