Long and Bumpy Road 2be continued...

[Startingover2]

Why can't I be positive? I just flat out don't trust the guy. I don't trust him to be faithful and I don't trust what he says to be true.

He just left. He came by to say goodbye before he left for the weekend. Oh boy! How fun. I was a bit standoffish and he was struggling for things to say, I could tell. Its almost like we are strangers and very uncomfortable around eachother.

I got to thinking about his words when he constantly tells me to let him know if I need anything....It irks me because I believe he is talking about doing things like running errands for me, or doing things around my house, bringing me food etc. But that is not what I need from him and that is why I get so frustrated and pull away from him. I need him to be there emotionally. I need him to stand up and be a husband and father. I can run my own errands and get my own food.

So he is gone until Sunday. PMA for me....going to try.