Ive already read No More Mr Nice Guy. Unfortunately I dont retain much of what I read. Took me forever to get through college, but thats another story. It is true though, ive turned into a wimpy little 'dont upset the queen or she may not give you any' Well im not getting any anyhow so whats the difference? We talked briefly about it last night. About how I missed how easy things were in the beginning and how I feel closer to her when we connect in that way. How she feels loved by me going to the store or getting a meaningful gift for no reason. I feel love through intimate physical contact. That I miss the way we used to flirt with each other and could play and laugh together about it and had cute names for our anatomy. Now she gets offended if I say them. That this should just be a thing we do, it will sometimes be flirty, sometimes be playful, sometimes romantic, sometimes a quickie in the morning before work. To me thats what a marriage is. Its not one person always initiating. Its not having a stunningly beautiful wife that im not allowed to touch and that hasnt touched me in months. I mean we have sex yes, but she hasnt physically touched my anatomy in months. Im the one shes supposed to love above all others before and this is how i feel cared about. She said if i didnt complain about it all the time maybe shed do it more often. I said I dont think I complain about it all the time. It had been 2 1/2 weeks since the last time we had sex and ive barely mentioned it. She said no, youve said something evey day. So we have a real disconnect on how often the subject is even discussed. I dont know guys.. it is what it is, either she and I will somehow come through this or we will continue to drift apart eventually giving up. I just know ive never had a relationship THIS difficult before and Ive had some tough ones. Ive never had anyone make such a big deal out of sex.
