Thanks SG.

DomR does give great advice. I've seen him get knocked around on some of the other threads, but i appreciate that he doesn't want to just look for the easy way out, but rather find/look for a solution. I saw that in another thread and kinda dragged him over here. ;\) hehe
Originally Posted By: sgctxok
Even if you begin by faking the enthusiasm...it ends up fun.
That's what I've been doing. It just seems like the more I start things and the more I appear to enjoy it, the more he questions me. I'm just trying to ignore the "can't you just be happy that I'm trying" thoughts and focus on why I'm doing it... to make him feel good. \:\)

It has definately made me realize how much i miss it. I think I'm back to the point I was at, wanting it all the time, but i just have to work really hard to want it w/ H. That probably sounds bad, but its not that i specifically want it w/ anyone else, just that I'm not attracted to him, so it takes work on my part.
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It doesn't really matter in the end. And as he and the relationship matures....you can get what you want first....
Yeah... I know. It's just frustrating. Chicken and the egg. the unending debate. hehe. I find myself getting frustrated with him because he was the one that came back and said he wanted to try again and stay M to me and not file for D like he said, but he hasn't shown me much to that effect. I just keep trying to focus on the little things, like the days he's helped with the girls or when he picks up a little. Stuff like that! It'll get better.


If i can't fall in love... I'd like to fall in chocolate! ~ Author Unknown

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