Exactly...I know I am doing the right things for 5D. I went to the mall with 5D yesterday to get her a haircut. When leaving ran into someone who wanted me to work for him. Meanwhile 5D picked out some jewelry and said can we get this for Mommy. He looked at me and said that is really sweet, she is thinking of someone other than herself. Really bragged on 5D for it later. Simple example, but I know I am doing raising 5D the right way. Going to enroll her in ballet and take her to it. Something that 5D really wants to do and I'll get the bonus 180 to boot. Heck, WAW may not know about it for awhile because of my darkness.
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I know I am affected by WAWs actions and soemtimes my fuse is a little shorter than it should be with D7.
it is not easy to not let WAW effect your mood. However, you must not let it for you 7D's sake. If you must take a stroll around the house or something. Sit on the couch and do nothing for a moment. Clear your head a second. Take a deep breath. Do something. The children are in the middle of a mess that is not what they want and have no clue why their world is being shattered. Shower them with time and love and it will heal you. And mine showers me back with more love than any Daddy deserves.
It's actually very easy to do for 5D...all you have to do is give them your time. This morning she was roller skating in the house. It was a blast. Until she started crying that she had to go to WAW's. She really really did not want to go. Brought tears to my eyes also. Not a lot you can say.
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In the interim try to have some fun and do something for yourself!
that is very difficult to do in a rural area. However, I am going to try to start to go out to eat once a week without 5D. Also, enrolled in dance class for myself but this might not work when I have 5D...no biggie. Trick for me to find happiness will be to find a variety of things to do locally that give me something to do. I can't always go hours away and spend lots of money to "just get out". Also, looking to travel a bit, especially go take 5D on a plane to go see snow. And I am probably going to buy a home this summer. I will not let WAW destroy my dreams. I want this for 5D and I. Perhaps, WAW will be there also.
