Thanks tryingman...it's amazing how positive I was considering every friend and family member said what she did to me and 5D was just dead wrong and would be ready to really fight now. It actually kind of rolled off me. No matter what she does, I cannot feel anything but love for WAW.
Some thoughts based on recent events that I left out from above, - WAW gave new excuse on 12/24...now it's because I am meticulous and am unhappy if everything is not just so...I validated her and then said I am not that way anymore you are not around to see it. I'll do x-mas a different way, it's not perfect but it's the best I can do for 5D. - 5D told me WAW did not know when I was coming home. Interesting she would bring that up. Last time she said it was about 2.5 months ago. - WAW brought up how I did not see this separation coming and how I was whiny, shocked, and surprised when it occurred. I had no answer, it really was unexpected, certainly a change of converstion, and don't know what to think about it. Maybe just a guilt thing she is working out. I found it odd for her to look that far in the past. I certainly need to listen better. I didn't even think about it until a day later.
Took 5D to WAW this morning. 5D really did not want to go and just wanted to be with me. I did as planned hugs and kisses and let 5D knock on door. When WAW answered, I pulled off. 5D has the stocking that 5D and I made with the gifts 5D picked out for her. The only gift I gave WAW is a framed picture of 5D from Jesus. 5D knows it is in there and that is from God.
Hardest thing for me to do is stay dark...I so much want to just hear her voice. But I know that I must not contact her in anyway. This is the only way. It allows me to continue to GAL and gives her more time to reconsider.
