What Now

[grdn24grl]

I'm feeling very angry today, can't quite put my finger on why. I feel like calling him and just screaming at him, is this normal? I don't even know what about. AAAARRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!! I think I need to go outside and scream my head off. Why can't he just wake up and see? I feel like he hasn't noticed anything different about me. Well, how can he, he never talks to me, and the only time we've seen each other is for ***. It's driving me nuts. I haven't even been able to give him his gift. Even with my GAL stuff, I can't stop thinking about him. I know I can't wait around for him to call, put I find myself doing so, I'm constantly checking my phone or email, nothing. When I hear his ringtone I am so excited, then I can be the bubbly, upbeat person. It's in between that I'm having difficulty with. I'm okay around people, when I'm out, but I can't be that all the time. When I'm alone I crash, sometimes harder than others. Please tell me this is normal and it gets better, easier to detatch. I just want to hear his voice once in a while, I would be happy with that.