Well this morning, I found a receipt for some jewelry. One was a necklace H got me for my birthday, one was a necklace he got me for Christmas, and then there was a third one-a gold heart necklace that I don't know who he got it for. I have kept the receipt, just in case, but I am not saying anything for now, unless he brings it up, which I doubt. Maybe he got an early jump on Valentine's Day, or maybe he IS still in contact with that slimy leech.
I did ask him this morning as he got ready for work if he thought we had saved our marriage, and he said I am trying. And I asked if he still wanted out, and he responded by asking me if I wanted out, I said no, then after a minute I said do you? He said what? I said do you still want out? And he said no.
I send him a note each day in his lunch, and today I sent him one to make him think, hopefully. And I ended the note saying that I am the one who will always love him.
I mean if the skank went back to her H, then why would MY H get her a gift? Unless that was a lie, because she knows he's married, and she knows I don't want him to leave me, so they could have dreamed up this elaborate lie to fool me, because these ow are so devious, as long as they get what they want in the end, the end justifies the means. Even if it takes years.
Okay, I know I am just thinking this all out here, because it could be that he got this necklace for me for Valentine's Day, and put it away. I mean the one he got me for my birthday is a starfish, because of the beach trips we take each year, and he even said he wants us to go there in the winter sometime. The other one is a journey necklace, I guess because of the "life's journey" we are on together. But the heart necklace-for me or the wh*re??? If he is and has been making a fool of me this past year, I am going to be so angry. I had started being almost happy again with our sitch, but now I have to wait and see, and the waiting as always will feel interminable.
Well, I needed to get that out, it makes me feel calmer, now I am going back to bed for a couple of hours.
