Random, almost pointless rambling, since i'm going to be cryptic again but i feel the need to blog.... revelation possibly hit me, and I need to write this down so's i can sleep tonight


Originally Posted By: Dom R

I have no idea of how to make the above happen.
"doing more things as a family" happened for a while, around august/sept. i was so happy then! But there were so many different factors in play then, I have no idea which ones made her more comfortable doing that. Wish I did.


Wow.
i'm a freakin idiot.
I think I realized something that... MAY.. have been a factor then. Something positive I did for her. That in some ways, was not something new. and yet in some ways, it was.

Kinda in a way of what sg was suggesting;
i need to forget about clever arguments, forget about sneaky "LRT" type tactics that some might suggest... and just let my wife know how special she is to me.

Trouble is... i'm really bad at this, generally speaking \:\( doing this consistently, really would be a 180 for me, i'm sorry to say.

But.. when i can detach from the hurt she has done to me over the past few years.. she is still ... i dont even have the words for it. "special to me" just doesnt cover it.
entirely inadequate.

i still love my wife. very deeply. i need to find better ways to show that to her.
Not in a "begging" way. "Begging", would be all about me.
I need to find ways to show her that I love her, in ways that are all about her.

(erm.. and o course.. actually getting enough time together with her, to give me opportunities to do that, wouldnt hurt either )

My current status: june 2006. Wife ran out and filed D.
Finalized Jan 11, 2010, after 12.5 years M.
3 wonderful sons caught in the middle