See I think he really needs to get into counseling!
You and me both sister!!!
And you are right, it wasn't running, per say. I wasn't saying "Oh I have to avoid H, he is depressed". I was more thinking "Maybe if we have more money, he'll worry less. Or maybe if I try to cheer him up with the girls, he'll have a good day". And I do admit to him, that yes, some days I couldn't wait to go to work. The girls were sooo clingy to me (H was hands off when I was home during the day), H was depressed, and to have that release and come to work felt good at times. I knew I *had* to work, so I never had that guilt of "Should I stay home or work?" Make sense?
He should have totally opened his mouth more. I know he kept quiet to keep the peace, but it wasn't fair to any of us!
I thought he was proud, he was resentful. He did most of the housework to help me, but he became resentful, no matter how much I thanked him. He went out, wanting me to go with him, but never asked because he knew how tired I was.... You get the picture...I wish, SO wish, he would have grabbed my shoulders and said "We are sinking here, wake up!". Sigh....
