I'm not much of a drinker or a party girl but I think some harmless fun is called for this year. Maybe something kinda dangerous or thrilling.... like a bungee jump or one of those suspension traverse slide thingys...
I'm feeling my wild side rear her wicked little self... ;))
Psa 51:10 Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.
the Complaint for Divorce next week. At his request.
I am filing the petition for visitation, as well, which will force us into mediation, as well as under the microscope of the G** DAMN social services department, who will send us BOTH to parenting classes. This is EXACTLY what I did not want to do. He is leaving me with no other choice though, the way I see it.
He had her out last night and he was drinking. He had her AND her friend with him.
Then he later called me and yelled at me because I flipped out when I talked to D and found out what was going on. When I had all I could take I hung up and he rang my phone repeatedly until I unplugged it, then he left a hateful message on my cell. I have had 4 hours sleep and 12 1/2 years of enabling him and making excuses for him and I can't do it anymore because I can NOT trust him.
Nothing ever changes by me standing around wringing my hands hoping it will. So I am going to change it myself from a proactive position. I'm not going to wait until the police call me to come pick D up at the station or worse, in which case they'd better never let his ass out of jail because I'd kill him. They will both hate me for a little while and that's going to suck. Maybe one day they will see I am doing this FOR them BOTH.
D actually said to me "it's not as if he's doing shot after shot after shot, Mom!".
WTF??
He is teaching her it is okay to get into a vehicle with someone as long as YOU or THEY THINK they can drive.
I will not let this go on.
He is either going to sober up on his own or be forced to do so and to be honest with you, I don't care which it is anymore. Everyone around him ignores this sh*t and it is going to result in my daughter being injured in some form or fashion one of these days or God forbid, wrapped around a tree. Whether it would be at someone else's hand 5 years from now because he isn't teaching her to make wise choices now, or at HIS hand because HE can't make them, I will end up blaming her father and he will blame himself and crawl into another bottle.
This is all the devil's work and he might as well just consider me officially back in this game because I am about to be right in his face.
This is going to be ugly.
But I have really been left with no other options.
I told him he needs to grow up and he said "yes, maam" all condescendingly and accused me of thinking I'm better than him. It's not that!!! Why is that always what he says?...God as my witness, had he been standing in front of me last night, I'd have been locked up for assault and battery.
