I am sure he does feel some kind of pain. Or has had some disappointments with you that are valid. Hey we aren't perfect. My word I made lots of mistakes to and did some of my share of things. But he is waaay over doing it. If you ask me it is to place blame on you to somehow try to justify himself. Because why would he initiate a relationship talk right after he went on his date on X-mas eve. To try and somehow justify it. Well, we are getting divorced blah, blah. Now he is like why are you pushing it. I bet you want to scream at times who the he** are you??
Remember to take care of yourself. You are one strong woman!