Hi, cat, I just read this whole thread on your sitch update. I am so sorry for all this happening. As you know, my H is also a cop, so I feel a special affinity for you and your sitch. I do want to say that the ow being a step above a prostitute, that isn't at all true, she is actually much lower than a prostitute. The Bible says that at least the prostitute just wants to earn enough money to have her daily bread, (or whatever she needs money for), the adulteress is after a man's very soul.
And my H says the same thing about faith or lack thereof. The things he used to believe, he now says he doesn't believe that way anymore. But he is getting better about it, and now I think is coming back around, and will ask me questions about faith that I sometimes have trouble answering.
I really cried when I started reading some of this, I honestly think that cops do have a lot of depression. I occasionally had thoughts of him using his gun on himself or me. Not so much now, but he is still a little depressed, I think, especially about getting older, and being afraid of the future. I don't know if he has had any more relapses when it comes to ow, but he has become an accomplished liar.
I will be praying for you and your family, that the New Year will bring a much better time for you.
