Starting to get it...

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hi atlas, thanks for saying hi. I don't get on the computer at home unless H is sitting right w/ me, so 4 days off work mean 4 days away... i know it's probably been a few rough days for you, hang in there.

sat and sun - i find myself getting frustrated w/ H quite a bit and i can always figure out why, i just have a hard time from preventing the frustration. luckily (for this sitch) i'm able to contain that and no one ever really knows. At least later i can look at the sitch and see why i got frustrated and get over it, thats better than i've ever been able to do before.

H wanted to get the house really clean before Christmas (all the little details). He says we should be able to get it done early. I'm cleaning, he's checking his email. I'm cleaning he's "figuring something out" (??), i'm helping the girls, he's taking a break, i'm cleaning and finally ask him "am I cleaning or are we cleaning." this is my frustration. He helps the girls clean their room. I don't like cleaning, but I know it needs to be done so i do it.

Went out Christmas shopping. Because of the car issues we've been having, didn't have as much extra to spend as we'd have liked, but still got the girls more then enough stuff. H stresses over money like a crazy person. I handle the bills because it was even worse when he used to. He keeps thinking we are going to have to be watching money forever... I remind him how much we've just spent on the car (unexpected) how much we spent on Christmas (extra) and that we didn't have any extra coming in, so next month, that will all be savings. I get frustrated cause he doesn't want to handle the bills, so i do, but then he questions everything i say about the money. I feel like i just can't win.

Mon and tues. finished Christmas shopping (yes, last minute, just a couple things though ) Good day. we do pretty well while we are out. I think my H gets frustrated and angry really easily at home cause he seems to be more mellow when we are out.

mini vent - what is it with guys and electronics. OK - maybe not all guys, but whatever. My H refuses to read the instruction manuals, so i do. Mon night, girls are opening a present for christmas eve and something happens to the video camera and the screen goes black. he pokes at it for about 10 minutes w/ no change, so i asked to look at it. maybe i shouldn't have done this, i think it's a guy thing, kinda like asking for directions, but i thought i could fix it. he gets all whiney and has a little fit about how it's broken and that sucks and blah blah blah... later that night, i switched it off and back on (yep that's it) and what do you know, it came right back on. he said he didn't do it, but it wouldn't have mattered cause it probably just needed time to sit. whatever...

ok all done

christmas was nice, girls slept in (9:00 - WOW) got up, made a big breakfast, opened presents, got all dressed and ready to go to inlaws. Had a nice dinner and the girls got more presents. Spoiled little babies. hehe... j/k. got home, girls fell asleep early, watched a couple movies (AP beta house and deck the halls, both very funny) then went to bed. I initiated, but there were no questions or wierdness from him, so that's good!

on a really good note - D1 has super sensitive skin and got a bad diaper rash last night (other people changing her at grandma's house and didn't know what i normally do, anyways...) when this happens, normally i clean her up and let her laydown naked for a little while and just rub her head to calm her down (hurts her really bad, she crys hard) last night, i asked him to get me her cream (dr prescribed) and he does. rather than just walking away, he actually sat down and helped me soothe her. I don't think he's ever done that before (not that i've seen) it was really nice to see.