Well, I have spent a lot of time with H over the past couple of days. I guess for now...at least on my end...looking at it as a friendship is the way to go. I was able to detach before and I guess I need to stay that way for the time being. I found myself being very paranoid about his phone. He would get a text or a phone call and I would wonder if it was from OW. He didn't check it that much and for the most part left it in the car. I told myself not to worry about it...he chose to be with me and not her during this time.
H's family lives about 2 hours away so he has made a lot of effort to spend time with me. He driven here 3 times since Wednesday and says he is coming back on Friday. If he can find an apartment he will move here next weekend.
I just feel so strange...I mean I have a good time with him. However, it is like I am walking on eggshells around him. I feel like I could say something that would flip the switch back. I don't want us to be like that. I don't want to feel like I can't speak up about things. I guess I need to realize that I can't rush this...patience is a virtue.
