Christmas was good. However, I am acutely aware that it represents the closing chapter to my family as I currently know it. I have made my final trip to the in-law's house. I absolutely expect that the wife will initiate the divorce after the first of the year. There's no turning back now. She wants me out of her life.
I am not moody or surly about this. I am not sad. I am depressed, but it really does not show. She has no clue how depressed I really am. My only face is happy, cheerful, and positive (OK, with occasional bursts of anger when the kids act up...). But I am giving her no real reason to say to herself, "See, this is why I need to get out!!!!"
Thank you all for the well wishes. TAL, Sally, Sara, Saffie, lwb, Rob, SueS... you are among my closest friends. I treasure you all.
How odd you said that about your in-laws. I felt on Christmas eve it was my last visit to her sister's house. Like a chapter closing. H doesn't understand why I can't continue to go to functions after this D occurs.....
I treasure you as well. You and other DB men have restored my faith in men, honestly.
I wonder how many of us will have the trigger pulled once the holidays come to a close....
merry christmas mark! (are you around or are you halfway to MO or the UK by now? lol)
hope you had a nice day yesterday. did your wife at least feign grace over her gifts? hopefully she showed some appreciation, you were so thoughtful getting them for her.
take care. hope all is well.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
Yeah, I am around. At home with the kids - the wife is out shopping (it's #40 for her today).
And thanks for asking about the gift. She was pleasantly surprised with the gift certificate. Today I give her the mother's necklace. We will see how that goes... stay tuned.
