Yes, Miss Hope and I are having lunch tomorrow, if my pager doesn't go off...maybe I'll ignore it if that happens..... I am sure H will think I am on a date. Hope described herself and I told her to look for the opposite and she'll find me. lol She sounds beautiful, inside and out........
Theo. I am so grateful you came to see me. Thank you so much. Really. And yes, it is so very hard to get a life, while all other parts of our life is falling apart around us. I am not having much fun either, I can admit that. I am here for the girls and when I concentrate really hard on having fun with them, it happens. I am working on not letting H bring me down with his constant reminders of my flaws: selfishness, cold hearted to name a few. I am thinking of you theo, and hope that we can both dig ourselves out of the painful hole.
I have learned that deserve so much more, and want that for myself, whether its my 'old' husband back, or someone new when the pain has resolved.
You pegged it. I have nothing left but to move forward. I cannot sit and feel this raw pain anymore. If someone described my situation to me, I would give that person that same advice, I think. Its time. I have given it months. And yes Ohio_Mark, I don't feel I should make the first moves. H has been talking for months about moving out and now when I say "Go", he stays.
He stuttered and stammered today when I told him he needs to get his own checking acct (we discussed this just 2 days ago). I told him I was researching mediators. He is all "Why are you pushing this?". He admitted to buying OW a mother's bracelet. A wise SallyM noted how ironic he is applauding OW's ability to mother, when she is tearing her own family apart. I told him I knew about the bracelet she gave to him.
I am rambling.
I wanted to thank all the 'men' for offering to snatch me up. The problem is, I don't see what your wives' problems are, because I know any DB lady on here would snatch the fellows up in a heartbeat....... The men on here are kind hearted, appreciative, faithful, and wonderful fathers.
Ok. Deal. If I get a big screen out of this, I can hold a MO DBfest.
