Christmas was good. However, I am acutely aware that it represents the closing chapter to my family as I currently know it. I have made my final trip to the in-law's house. I absolutely expect that the wife will initiate the divorce after the first of the year. There's no turning back now. She wants me out of her life.
I am not moody or surly about this. I am not sad. I am depressed, but it really does not show. She has no clue how depressed I really am. My only face is happy, cheerful, and positive (OK, with occasional bursts of anger when the kids act up...). But I am giving her no real reason to say to herself, "See, this is why I need to get out!!!!"
Thank you all for the well wishes. TAL, Sally, Sara, Saffie, lwb, Rob, SueS... you are among my closest friends. I treasure you all.
