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[mrarow]

Well Boxing day is here and I made it thru Christmas day ok. I was pretty depressed after the night before and had a hard time keeping the tears from flowing in the morning. I had a good chat with Wifes Good friend after she was witness to my stupidity on Christmas eve. She states my W has not left and is confused and I need to give her time and space to make up her mind. She made the suggestion that I stop drinking while this stuff is going on because she watched me go from positive easy going guy to depressed angry and pushy Drunk guy. This was not the first time I have messed everything up because of drinking. I decided she is so right about the drinking I am done getting drunk while my life is in turmoil like this. I will be the designated driver from here on out! One with big ears and the small mouth! I think that will help to keep the depression at a level I can handle. Time is my friend and my love still grows. I am so disappointed at sleeping alone at Christmas and thru all of this but have got to realize this is not punishment its a way to give my W the space SHE WANTS AND NEEDS right now. Time for me to not be so self centered and be more understanding of the time she is going to need to get this figured out. All in all the rest of Christmas went very well with the dinner and evening with the rest of the family. I helped with the dinner and dishes as well as having a great evneing watching a movie with W and girls. Got a goodnight kiss from W when she went up to bed. That's about it for now I guess....