Oh no. Totally cede the point. I'm not saying stay with your h, even. Life is too short to be miserable, if you realistically decide it would make you miserable. This isn't about your m, it's about this fantasy in your head that life with Soldier guy would be that idyllic "complete package" scenario.
Fact is, he didn't say "stay". Big, fat red minus in SGs little book. And if you've never done the stepparenting gig, it's very rewarding but needs a level of compromise, flexibility, love and devotion that requires a very loud and heartfelt "stay" to not implode in the start box.
Whatever you do, if you look everything realistically and make an informed choice I'll be as happy as an imaginary friend in the computer can be. Now, I'm out of here. Hope everyone has a good time tonight.
Thanks SG. I am fully aware I am not being realistic right now. This whole thing is surreal. I honestly don't know what it going to happen. But at this point, I'm at some level of peace regarding my confusion..if that makes sense. I know if I said in my mind, "I'm staying with H no matter what and no matter how miserable I am" I start to literally feel like throwing up. Not good. Clearly something is wrong with that scenario. What I don't know is if I keep this fantasy alive in my head just to keep myself partly sane, partly alive. And the step-parent thing really freaks me out. The guy has three kids of his own. But that is not part of my fantasy world SG! Thanks for spoiling it. But that's what "imaginary friends" are for, right? LFL
