I know EXACLY where you are coming from! This line from your post was so scary, it was like you were in my head! "While we are divorced, we are not emotionally together. While I have been out and in the dating world, the more I have been out there, the more I realize that the person that I am looking for I have already found and was married to for 9 years. While I try to move on........I don't think I will ever feel like I am not cheating, or actually holding out hope for her. Is that wrong? " I feel the exact same way!
My XH and I had a falling out last week... and our friendship is in question now. I gave him a week of "quiet" from me, but I broke down and did text him "Merry Xmas". Needless to say I have not heard from him.... nor do I think I will....
I hope things go better for you! Best of luck with your situation. It is nice to know that there is someone else out there that is feeling the way I am!
