You are right J, it isn't today. Yesterday is really the first time I'd realized this. So, I need to get used to the feeling before I can really know what it means. And hiding from it is probably not a good plan, now that I know it exists. So, I guess I just need to let it be for a little while, before I know what to do with it. I don't like the feeling, but I can sure see why it is there. Really, it might be more surprising if it wasn't, at this time. I guess one way I'm trying to avoid hiding from it is to put it on here. I'm not much of a self mediator, unless being a bit silly at time counts (which I think it might). At least that doesn't usually lead to driving into a tree, or jail time.
I really appreciate your thoughts. These feelings are pretty unexpected, so I need some help in sorting them out. I'm a conflict avoider, and I don't see this resolving without conflict. I wonder if that's part of my problem with them.
So, two younger boys and I have enjoyed our fajitas. Then, biggers call and say they are coming home, and bringing friends, hungry ones. I didn't make enough for that! Fortunately, there is still some crispy pork roast from Sunday night, so they can still devour meat. I'll make the enchiladas tomorrow, since I have the stuff. Nothing is under the bed, except perhaps dust bunnies. The anklet is still MIA, and the room 'looks' worse than it did before. But, I think it is actually closer to done. Now I can hit each area and either find a place for stuff, or, get rid of it. And then things should be much better. And I think that whatever was physically bothering me is quite a bit better, I've got more energy today.
Oh, and perhaps this belongs on the party thread, but the 'big' present to the boys was Guitar Hero 1&2 and 2 guitars. I have taken a stab at it, and can see how one could wasted many hours on it! I like that some of the music is shall we say, of a certain age. And leave it at that!
