H never came back from Iraq

[MichelleLT]

Thanks for the support. I'm really trying to focus on how lucky I am to have online friends like you guys, wonderful friends from school/work/dancing and great family, including my in-laws. Everyone is trying to be so supportive and I'm really trying to stay positive.

I haven't been sleeping well, so I took a tylenol PM last night. It's probably the first full night of sleep I've gotten in a coupe weeks. I was groggy this am, but it felt so good not to spend half the night thinking about the fact that H is with OW and what they're probably doing.

I slept in the guest bedroom of my in-laws with my SIL last night. It was really nice to see all of them. H's grandmother lives with them and my SIL is home from college. So, saw all of them, exchanged gifts, had breakfast, watched a movie and chatted. It was a bit rough emotionally to not have H there plus to watch how in love my MIL and FIL are makes me horribly jealous. But, they deserve to be happy. I'd just like to be able to make it through more than a day without crying.

Anyways, off to my folk's house to spend the rest of the day. I hope you all are having good holidays!