I don't miss her at all. I don't care if/when she comes back. We celebrated a birthday today, she 'should' have been here, but it didn't matter to me, at all. I don't think I like this, not a bit. It kind of worries me. Are the only reasons I want her to stay because I don't want a 'failed' marriage, and for the kids? The youngest of whom just had his tenth birthday with only a phone call from his mom, and seems fine? Of course, they are so exited by Christmas, maybe that's lost. It has always been a challenge to separate his birthday from Christmas. to the point where we pulled back on Christmas Eve traditions we had to make sure that it was his day. Oh, well, maybe I'll feel differently after a day of two.
It worries me that I don't see W as really having anything to do with why I want to save the marriage. Have I over detached? After so much rejection, I didn't know what else to do. And what can I do now?
Well, there's some pleasant Christmas reading for you! I hope lots of you have such a great Christmas that you don't read this til Boxing Day!
