H went to Christmas Mass w/ Ds and myself this afternoon. I made the same thing I make for dinner every Christmas eve. I didn't invite H or ask if he was staying for dinner. He sat down w/ us and ate. D15 wanted to open our gifts to each other tonight but H talked her out of it. H ran an errand then came back for a little bit. I thought he would stay till D10 went to bed but he didn't. He asked what time she wanted him here in the morning and said he would be here then.
I still don't know if H is going to ILs w/ us tomorrow. H did pick up a couple of the gifts for his family and I got the rest. H also called me today while he was at Target to see if I needed anything.
Today H helped me take my coat off in church. Don't know if he did it because he still cares about me or he still cares about appearances. H also found the song in the book for me a couple of times. Noticed that he didn't move his leg away from mine when they were touching. These are making it hard for me to keep my expectations low for tomorrow. I would love to get a hug or a kiss as my Christmas gift. I know that isn't going to happen, so I need to get that fantasy out of my head.
