Well W called back later, saying sorry and that it was unreasonable of her to expect me to suddenly change my schedule. Said that S and her would be there tonight, and after he was down, as per our plan, I would come by with the presents. She even offered for me to stay the night again.
I'm going to have a talk with her about why I'm not spending the night. She needs to understand that it isn't right to string me along while she lives a double life. In much better terms then that though.
Man I just had to deal with another person that is dying of cancer. He is only 55, quit eating 3 days ago and his home nurse thinks it's only a matter of days. So apparently, if someone shakes my hand right now they have at the most months or days to live. This is a horrible X-mas.
Funny thing is I feel good, feel like I've taken control of my life and my decisions and meanwhile the world is falling down around me. Hmmm...well it's nice to be able and laugh a little at oneself.
