Sara, she's refusing to go. Said she's done, it's too late. Basically she has moved on and is only interested in dating other people. She said maybe a year or two down the road she may change her mind once she lets go of her anger. But I'm fairly certain she'll probably find someone and either be in a long term R or married by then. I'm very confused as to if I should move on once I'm ready or wait a bit for my kids. I still love her very much. It's certainly tough to see her with other people. Piles on my loneliness without a female companion.... I do feel that once I make the decision to move on, I won't look back and I'm not sure if I can do that to my kids.... Of course I don't feel like I want to marry for a long time. The lack of commitment from the first M from my W has certainly made me a bit running scared.... I'm not sure I have the conviction or will to wait her out. I fear my desire for a deep connection with someone will make me cave in and move on....
M: 31 W: 31 M: 7 T: 8 S:4 D:2 Bomb dropped: too many to count or remember, 12/17/07 last one S on 9/2/07 W sent off D papers 12/31/07. Me trying to live life and hope she returns one day.
