I know it's really hard Jenny. I get the pleasure of knowing my H is having his Xmas with OW tonight. I will be with his family and he won't. He'll be with strangers. I'm really sad today, as well. I'll be spending some time with him tomorrow, but that's all, just the morning. I hate this feeling right now. I'm sure you do, as well. It's okay to feel blue this time of year. It's your first Xmas without him, right? Mine too.
Have a Merry Christmas. Hug your kids really tight. Let them fill your heart.
M 5yrs 1st baby-girl born 6/18/08 Bomb: 10/13/07 OW - I was 6wks Prego H Moved in w/OW: 11/2/07 D Final 07/10 OW had his baby 3/17/09-so her Me, now - happier than I ever was with him