not a peep

[Trixi]

Thanks SPM. Those were some pretty good 2x4s. (rubbing forehead)

You are right. He isn't acting loving. The part where I say I know he loves me, is that he loves me as a special person in his life. Not that he loves me like a husband should love a wife. But even so, I am letting way too little be 'enough'.

Do you want a guy who tears your heart out, teases you, spouts nonsense about "nothing is forever" while he is forcing the absolute disruption of your life?

Not really. My intellect recognizes that even if he had some ephiphany tonight and said that he wanted to work on the marriage, I would need to move out. I need time to regain my strength. This situation has been so wobbly and out of balance, there is no solution but to stop the spinning for awhile.

If I read you right, you want intimacy, trust, commitment. You want someone to share life with, not someone who only wants to share a bed. You want a life partner, not a sex partner.

Yup.

It's hard because the sex is such a strong sign of intimacy. In your mind, maybe sex means you have that loving trusting relationship. But you don't. You have the (once-in-a-while) sex relationship, and you have an alien, selfish, jerk.

*heavy sigh*
yeah.

EXPLETIVE!!!