I know SG. You are right. And the thing I am hung up on is my unfulfilled need/want/purpose: to find someone who can love me as good as they f@ck me (to cut right to the chase). You are not in a SSM so you don't understand how painful that is. The sex was just SO easy and SO fulfilling with this guy. I know some people think that is being petty or whatever. But when that is a major piece missing in your M, it becomes monumental. And yes, my H said stay, but he also said go, so that plays a large role in my confusion here as well. I don't want to get into the whole situation with this guy, let's just say he is wanting the door to stay a bit open even though I did shut that door about a year ago when he contacted me and I told everyone here. Let me also just say I am smart enough to know that people probably say things they don't really mean when they are in a war zone (emotions running high and all) and I am not about to toss the M without giving it my all.
Ok, I need to go get my head out of my azz now and get ready for xmas. Hope everyone has a nice holiday.
