On that note, I'd like to talk about trust, to me, trust is something that one has to earn, and once it has been earned, then broken, it is very hard to get it back, especially with the one who broke it. I, myself, am learning to trust again, but I don't think I will ever be able to trust my W, again, on anything. My thinking is this, at this time, I don't want anything to do with her. I just want to live my life, my way. I was controlled so much during the M, so now that I have found my freedom/self, I will let that happen, again.
Trust is a complicated thing - I pretty much don't trust anyone beyond a certain point, which has always made life difficult. I obviously trust some more than others, but I think it's harder to trust our own judgment than it is to trust someone else.
As for W - I think given time I could trust her completely again. That said, much like many things, one hiccup and you're back to square one with it all. I don't really get in my own head what the difference is between a new person building trust, and someone you know already working to regain it. Maybe it's just because everyone starts at the bottom of the ladder with me
