Dont you worry about STDs? I do. (Rubbers... only give me so much in terms of 'sense of security.') And because of that, I think I tend to stick to one person at a time. Tho quite honestly... that doesn't really do a girl much good if the person you are dating is out there with his dip stick is various cans of oil, and on top of it, not protecting himself, and therefore, not protecting me. So I MAY AS WELL be out there, doing my own thing, picking my own people, having my own fun.
I have the ability to be emotionally detached enough to have and enjoy a lover (or maybe two or three). To be, as you say, a little bit in love and a bit more in lust. Actually, I'm probably better suited to that than a LTR.
Honestly... I can actually BE the cold/heartless, take-what-I-want-and-leave person it seems Blackfoot wants everyone to think he is. I could probably stun even him. That kind of person has no care for security or commitment or much of anything else, for that matter. Shudder.
When you have lived a life of no rules, no ethics, no morality, no sense of fairness, or what is minimally decent... those things become something you don't fool around with, and you don't take lightly.
That makes it sound like I'm looking for somebody who is perfect. I'm not. I'm looking for honesty... and I'll be damed wondering why that is so flipping hard to find.
So in the absence of finding that... I guess I am kinda at a loss as to how to proceed.
