Thanks for dropping by. Tell me where your thread is and I will go look at it.
It is so difficult to do all this, especially with children in the picture. This is coming up to 5 months for me and it does get easier. It still will take a lot me time though.
My WAW still says she cares and would feel jealous if I found someone else. They still want some control. I know it would have been a good idea to accept her offer of going xmas shopping for our children and to accept that she pays for the xmas gifts but I have too much pride and can not take her offer.
Although she has left me in a mess, I will clear up that I have no money for xmas gifts for my children with them. I could have taken half the gifts that my WAW buys and put my name on them. Yes this would be better for my children's xmas but to me, it is not about winning or losing or even pretending, for me it is about pride, dignity and being honest to myself. I have done the best I can since the bomb and I am trying to teach my children the values that I have and prey that they take something from this mess for future use.
Children love money and gifts but the older ones will not be bought off. They want to see me at xmas and they miss me. They have told me they do not like OM and that their mother is not the same towards them. They do not like how they are being treated.
It is a crazy time and I have to hold on to what I believe in and my children, otherwise I would go loopy!
Please feel free to let me know your situation. I have found this board to be a God send for support.
