New -Devestated and Feeling Hopeless

[Michael Mc C]

There's no denying that DB'ing can be difficult. In the end you are the only one who can decide if it's a worthwhile venture. I've been exactly where you are as far as being torn between which way to go and even now I find myself struggling at times.

Ellis, you've handled yourself well so please don't beat yourself up about sending the emails. Any time I feel that I've pushed or had a bit of a backslide I try holding onto the memory of it so I don't it again - doesn't always work!

And posting here, getting your emotions out this way, is so much better than approaching him with it. You did great with that!