still trying...update

[LuvMyHusband]

hi everyone,
He will be here in a couple of hours. He told me last night that he will not be staying here but at a hotel and that he is not planning on being her for NYE. He said that he feels it makes it harder on us after sleeping together and then he leaves. IDK what to think. He has the last few times but all of a sudden, he's not this time. Suspicion is raising it's ugly head as this is what happened when he first left. The OW didn't want him to stay here so he went to a hotel.

I didn't cry on the phone but I bawled after I got off the phone. He claims he's not in contact with her anymore that he is distant bc of MY behavior. I went off on him when D8 collapsed and had pnuemonia.

He also told me that when he first left he had only been planning on being gone a few weeks but bc of MY beating him up emotionally it's been like this.

His attitude floors me. He doesn't seem to think that his leaving and having OW in the picture should have caused me any major upset. I guess I should have just calmly said "ok, do what you need to do, I'll be waiting" like a dog under the table for scraps.

Yes, I'm feeling angry and hurt but will try to get it under wraps before he gets here.