Waiting for WAW to come back, patience is a virtue

[DaveJ]

So the W got strep throat. Kinda sucks right before xmas. Although, I wonder if it's God giving me an opportunity to show her the real me.... I've been taking care of the kids and her. Sleeping on the floor at my own house is certainly better than sleeping somewhere else not with my family. I did probe a little and asked her if she sees any hope with us sometimes in the future. She said that from what she's seen the last few days of me she feels there's more hope. She said she's seeing a different side of me. Truthfully I'm not being that much different than being just me. She's just so blinded by her resentment and pain that she chooses not to see me. I know she's still pressing the D and still wants to get involved with someone else. But I think that if she can continue to see the person I have become/becoming and if I continue to be consistent, maybe, just maybe she'll let go of that anger sooner. After that, who knows.....

Is it bad for me to pray to God that whomever she meets are jerks? I guess that's not very nice is it? I would suppose if God means for her to come back he will guide her back.... And I just have to be consistent and keep doing what I think is right in my heart.