So many people not even in your situation have a hard time with the holidays.
Someone at work lost her 21 year old son in a freak accident over the summer and she is more than devastated. To get through the days...she writes 3 things (no more, no less) that she's is thankful for that happened THAT DAY. I am so amazed at that.
Your thankfulness will get you through.
sg Love is PATIENT, love is KIND, LOVE never fails / DB since 2001