I divorced after 10 years of marriage and I sought the divorce. Still, I so missed his family. And 13 years later...I'm welcome back, and he isn't always. But I live over 300 miles away...
Anyway...I feel what you're missing.
You did an AWESOME job!!! Really you couldn't have done better.
Wishing you wonderful holidays.
sg Love is PATIENT, love is KIND, LOVE never fails / DB since 2001