LT First are worst. Yes and it sucks being lonely for the holidays. Guess I'm lucky I got used to being alone and Thanksgiving and my Bday was just other days however that did not come the first year I dealt with it.
Honestly once this season passes it does get better. You are in a particularly rough time however steel is refined by heat and pressure and there is a reason (though we may not know that reason yet) why you will need to be that strong.
Real strength is signing on the line to be as strong and brave as a leader tells you to be and you cannot back out when it gets rough. You did and I guess you are still in so you still will. You have it and will develop a perspective few will ever know but they will know you have it and will be inadequate.
You are destined for big things. No one here knows what yet but this is sadly an experience that will harden your backbone for what is to come and when it does you will shine. I do not know specifically what you do but I know you will do more than gather wealth and things like most Americans.
Compared to you most 25 yr old Americans are nothin but a gaggle of fools.
"All I want is a weeks pay for a day's work" Steve Martin
