Help.. H has lost it!!!!

[LisaLost]

Thanks so much- I have pretty much buried myself in the Bible and other books today so that I can make the right choices here. I am letting go- I have to.. let him twist in the wind for awhile- if he is with another ow( his 4th ) or if he finds one right away then so be it. Right now like I said he refuses to talk to me. I will be in church as usual tommorrow but w/o the kids- I think I need to go alone tomm. he will be there with his family. I will ignore them the best I can- I am sure it will raise eyebrows but they will not keep me from church. I have cried my eyes out today and probably will for the rest of the night. Like I said my kids are at my mom's for now- What you guys don't probably knowis the amount of money he has spent this year alone on his ow(plural) it has been over 30,000 and we have had to sell and move into a 1 bedroom singlewide trailer to get back on our feet. yes, I let him drag us down this far. but I can get up from here and move on- I have nothing now- we don't even have a xmas tree I am just in shock that it doesn't seem to bother him at all. He is all comfy in his hotel room that his daddy paid for and I haven't ate in 3 days,no kidding- I say this not for pity but b/c it is sad that he doesn't see what he is doing to the kids and me- The kids eat at my mom's - I guess It is my fault if I am hungry b/c I am too proud to tell my mom we have no food- but like I said the kids are fed and that is allthat matters

I just need to start somewhere with a plan

He wants a D, ok then


Love,Lisa